I do! I feel left out or left behind! But I know God is caring for everything that I cannot even begin to comprehend! I feel left out or left behind because of Mitch’s job transfer and because of the changes in our lives!
Psychology would say take a pill! God says face the giants and depend on Him! That is the choice I make- follow God and allow Him to conquer all my fears. I suppose you are wondering why I am feeling left out? No I am not having a personal pity party and have fought that aspect of human nature. I am choosing to focus on the “cause of Christ.”
If I could explain in a nutshell “why” I am feeling left out that it would appear selfish. But I desire to walk alongside Mitch in ministry and meet the people he meets, sleep in the same bed he sleeps, eat at the same table he eats, and attend church and other meetings together. The freshness of a new man on a new ministry job is over! I missed many introductions and meetings upfront so I feel invisible!
But what is God teaching to Mitch and I? It has been nearing a year that the Lifeway job ended and months that the Mid-South Association hired him as Leadership Development Director. We are willing to learn and explore in these day just what we can learn and discover during such a long transition.
Some good people are suggesting we rent the house; which I have totally disregarded because it will only cause more expenses in the end with insurances and just trying to satisfy renter’s demands! So we wait on God! Other people are so encouraging and so prayerful that they say things like, “you know God is the author of your lives and He knows exactly what He is doing and just wait on His wonderful blessings. You will see that in the end God had your best interest in His plans.”
I can deal with the positives! I am thankful for the job! I am thankful for endurance! I am grateful for housing on the other end that was extended at no costs thus far! I am awed by God’s provisions! I am blessed with a great husband and loving father to our adult children!
There are moments that I feel left out of the transition but for the most part when I re-focus on God and how blessed I am to have Him love me so much I cannot tell you how swiftly the battle of my mind changes. Some realities in life are challenges and that is why it is so important to recognize God’s love for each us.
I am going through some health changes and still dealing with an ongoing elevated R-factor in the blood and tire easily. So, I know the power and strength of the Lord! I know His goodness, mercy and I sense the times that He literally pushes me along each day.
I believe that….”God takes us aside during life to simply give us rest and to be near to us so we can Hear and Know His Voice!” I can testify how much I know His love, provisions, and blessings in the midst of not understanding or feeling left behind!
So, if you are feeling “left out or left behind” don’t worry! Ask God to let you be on His team by asking Him to be your “Savior” from the worries of this world. Pray and ask God to save you, forgive you and confess He is Lord of this world. Locate a Bible and begin to read or re-read scripture. You will notice a swift difference in your focus.
I keep hearing the message from people, “God’s ways are not our ways, nor His timing our timing.” Yes I agree but- I have so many obvious concerns and questions during this transition. It is like the entire situation is 2+2=5 and something is not right! So Psalm 62 is a great reminder!
Psalm 62:5-7
5- Find rest, O my soul, in God alone;
my hope comes from him.
6- He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
7- My salvation and my honor depend on God;
he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
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